Urban Hermit

0204

2010-02-03T22:08:00.001-08:00

I just got the Nescafe standard powder, nothing much to comment about, not too good but acceptable. At least it keeps me alert and give me a diy coffee fix.

0202

2010-02-01T23:58:00.000-08:00

我们一直都找东西，有如一个失去已久的拼图？也许，不是很确定所要寻找的那个神秘的宝物是什么，但是终究会成功找寻它的，对吗？它可能是实体，也可能是一个概念，一个理论。

0201

2010-02-01T01:43:00.000-08:00

I went to the Chinese doctor today and this cab driver told me not to worry about my illness as he thinks I will recover well and I have nice eyebrows, I don't know where is the link, haha.

The chinese doctor says my left leg bone is abit weak due to the steriods and that the medications is not too good for me. He says I will be fine once I finished the medication course.

On the good side, I believe he is right on my theory too, if the meds do not work it means my spinal cord is not swollen, thats good news. I think I will go ahead to do a 2nd Ct scan just to be sure.

Tudou is a good site to watch shows.

0131

2010-01-30T21:24:00.000-08:00

I finally got my books from open trolley, and is halfway through Kafka on the shore, now I am in the mystical world of Haruki Murakami, hehe.

LC is coming later to visit me, its been more than a decade since I ever had any friend visit my house, I am kind of paranoid, for some strange reason I am always very conscious if my house is too messy or dirty.

Yesterday, a good old aikido friend, P plan some ktv session and steamboat buffet with a couple of old aikiod kakis, they are still practising aikido except for A, who claimed he has no $ to do it anymore, as for me I am out for good due to my illness. It was the first time in my life that I ate crab without anyone helping me with the shells!

My mum told me just now that my older brother will probably move to Australia for good to work and live after he get his degree. It is good news since I am not even in talking terms with him and hope one day I can live either alone or with my mum or little brother only (if he is not married).

0129

2010-01-28T23:55:00.001-08:00

我长这么大，还是第一次抹窗，够神奇吧！我真的是被宠坏的孩子。接下来，我希望可以学会煮饭和养殖物。

刚刚订购的健身用的凳子已经送到，加上明天的哑铃和健身“塑胶”，我就可以建立我的私人健身房了！

0126

2010-01-25T23:09:00.000-08:00

最近一直在读经典的英文文学名著，所以就在网络上找一些中文博客的东西来读。

除了早上买早餐或报章以外，我一天最多只能走路到一个远一点的地方，所以也没法买或借中文书。

我也在网上订购了一堆的英文书籍寄到家门口！

买了拐杖比较方便走路，至少更加安全吧。

1004

2009-10-04T05:40:00.000-07:00

我喜欢中文歌的一大原因，是因为我没办法欣赏一首我听不懂，或没有深度歌词的歌。

吴青锋的歌词，你得把它们一一拆开来，才能慢慢咀嚼它有如诗词一样的意境。

《叶子》的一句歌词“孤单是一个人的狂欢狂欢是一群人的孤单”写的很好。不管是一个人还是一堆人在一起，都是平等的，不能一意孤行地认为一个人一定比一群人寂寞。

昨天和P喝咖啡，她说我变消瘦了。

我订了机票去邻国，可是还没定酒店！终于可以期待出国散心了。我应该学日文吗？四年拚完所有的日文鉴定考试够吗？

0712

2009-07-12T05:58:00.000-07:00

我已经有三个月没有上网写东西了,太不应该了.生活平淡,不过偶尔有一些惊喜和失望吧,也不过如此,没什么好讲的.

虽然我欢迎一些能够打扰我规律生活的人和事,但是他们还是必须经过我的允许.

我是选择残忍的方式吗?那总比欺骗人好多了.

SIGNS

2009-03-29T01:17:00.001-07:00

0127

2009-01-27T07:32:00.000-08:00

我终于“毕业”了，正式成为公司的一份子，这也是农历新年的最好礼物。这几天一直在咳嗽，现在比较好一点了。我也在网络上找到失散多年的小学同学，希望可以在来一次大团圆。

1216

2008-12-16T04:15:00.000-08:00

I am going for a shot at physio again. Some P coy agent stops me to do survey, I told her to get back to me in January, I have a plan for the kid haha. I got nothing to buy, but u can sell me yr trust la. I ask to see her manager too. Meanwhile we are busy like hell in the office, we can only stop when this hooho ends by end of december.

1207

2008-12-07T01:59:00.000-08:00

In the end I decided to go ahead with the 21km run and end up with a 3hr40minutes timing, with 2500mg of Panadol. It is close to my expected 3hr 30min timing.

It is frustrating to be fit "on top" but not"below", you want to run yet you cannot run but walk when the legs still acting crazy. I notice I can drink quite lots of fluids and even eat banana(!) during a run with no crippling stitch, another improvement!

It is time to hunt for a cheap bicycle, if not a fold-able bicycle,because some jerk stole mine.

1112

2008-11-12T04:56:00.000-08:00

我好想住在你们的心里，在里头拼命寻找最美丽的家具和灿烂的装饰。请问你们要我付出多少的细心的情感租金才能给我钥匙？我发现和别人沟通的技巧并不如过去想象得那么难，不过还有很多可以进步的地方。用心聆听是非常重要的，这是需要付出很多心思，也是尊重别人的最高境界。我的工作让我天天见到一大堆在各个不同领域的精英，所以我非常珍惜这个难得的机遇。我把每一天当做是一堂宝贵的课，吸取他们的经验和知识，毕竟学无止境。这次又一再证明了一点：傻瓜终究会有傻福的。对了！我还能申请上公司主办和外头的课程。

1022

2008-10-21T23:09:00.000-07:00

Currently I am preparing for my last 2 papers and reading these 2 books borrowed from the library:

http://www.amazon.com/Compassionate-Samurai-Being-Extraordinary-Ordinary/dp/1401920446

http://www.amazon.com/Success-Principles-TM-Where-Want/dp/0060594896

1019

2008-10-19T10:53:00.000-07:00

I remember the movie "sliding doors", it keeps you wondering how one simple decision can make a huge impact in your entire life.

I must never fall back on improvement or let the past hinder the future.

1014

2008-10-14T07:38:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since I last blog. I resign from the agency before I close my first sale for J, as my new job has a direct conflict of interest with this business. Actually if I had continued, I can probably closed at least 7 or 8 cases, but i rather not do this with a half-hearted altitude.

I know I can do it if I want to but i need to overcome my longtime insecurity with money as well,it is the biggest obstacle for me, somewhat like a handicap. I am not bothered by what others think of me though, they do not know me well enough, although they meant well. I know my strength is in analyzing,but not in interpersonal communication. I also do not believe I am not suitable for sales, if not I would not have try this new job...

However, I am proceeding to take my last 2 general papers, since these papers are valid for 3 years, I am buying myself time to think and improve my EQ skills at the same time.

0903

2008-09-03T07:15:00.000-07:00

突然之间，有四家公司打电话来要我去面试，我以为经济开始放缓？、

我简直不敢相信，自己竟然来不及请假去面试。。。我还没提到那些零零碎碎的“任务”

感觉好忙碌，可是很充实，现阶段我除了努力，也要从头到尾改变自己。

今天在咖啡店看到一个人发羊巅，吓坏了周围的人，还好他的同事很镇定地照顾他。

我觉得这不是当事人第一次发生状况了，因为它的同事好像救护人员一样专业。

0818

2008-08-18T05:42:00.000-07:00

I am out of the comfort zone, just corss my fingers.

It is a happy day for Singapore to get a silver medal after 48 years, I hope I can live to see another medal again. Life is great!

0809

2008-08-09T04:12:00.000-07:00

I made the final decison to quit, I guess it is better to go nicely then wait to be sacked. They has such a stinking reputation it is best to leave cleanly and let them take the crap themselves. YD was right, life outside is tough but it cannot get worser than here

My intern was sacked last Friday, and backend it shows that the company has no respect for my manager or me, since I have no idea what triggers her to be terminated.

I will be getting my licence on 22th, it is time to be full gear in this.

Happy Birthday Singapore!

0623

2008-06-23T04:51:00.000-07:00

如果我的脸上每一个表情都显露出我的想法，那是优点还是缺点？

不要以为你天天加班，就代表你很勤劳。

我待在椅子上工作的时间远远超越你的工作的时间，你认为大家都是瞎子吗，没看见你喜欢走来走去摆出一副很忙碌的模样？

那些会议只是无畏的让人浪费时间，也顺便给自己一个好的借口去做戏。

0610

2008-06-10T06:18:00.000-07:00

面对这些有的没的无聊琐事，我真的好累，想休息却又不知道下一步该怎么走。

我的忍耐已经到了顶峰，现在只是等一个好的借口狠狠地下决定。

事实后勇敢地面对自己，思考我最想要得是什么？

要不要有自由的工作时间，自己做老板？还是一辈子看老板的脸色？

0530

2008-05-30T07:41:00.000-07:00

It is a weekend break for me in Bintan, I finally have a vacation. Office has been more or less set up, it is still a nice working physical environment.

However, , it is still a mental torture to work here, I think sooner or later I will just give up.3 more people have left/asked to leave/have tendered, I still work alone with my intern. One potential candidate did not make it, I do not know the exact reason. I think the other guy was "fly kited" by the bosses for his final round of interview.

0427

2008-04-27T00:05:00.000-07:00

After two weeks of cough, runny nose and fever, I am finally close to recovery.

I shall be back running and Aikido training, before I turn anorexic. The intern is good, she knows more about the insane place here, I shall aim to knock off at 6pm, to the dismay of my manager who has extremely bad time-management skills.

The IT guy just confides to me she found a new job that pays 500 bucks more, I told him he should go since it is so much better and he has the chance now.

Happy 28th!

2008-04-08T07:40:00.000-07:00

These days I try to read in the mrt,so as not to waste time staring into space. I try to keep at least 1-2 hours to send email and read up more.

I believe I am closer to find the meaning of everyday's mundane activities again. Happy 28th, zenpoet! 7 more years to get my own hdb!

Did I not realise before or was I forgetful? It seem that there are more people remembering my birthday..hmmm As usual I did not celebrate it this year. It was kind of cool that my ex-coworkers sms and call me today. None of the poeple in my workplace now knows, its a blessing in disguise, I don't want to feel the bagguage of celebration.

I got a Timex watch from the PP gangs, and went for a run yesterday with it. With my current leg cramp, I have to back off a bit. Good nite again. I have printed 3 topics to read up for tomorrow.

0323

2008-03-23T06:58:00.000-07:00

My appraisal was okay, I was told that I am too quiet but hardworking, I was given new jobscope. The 2 new headcounts are coming soon, one gal is coming in early April, the other after mid April.

I plan not to touch alcohol or go pubs unless as much as possible, it is too destructive for the mind and body.
After days of raining, today's weather is perfect, I was running outdoor at 10 to 11pm+ and there was absolutely no need to wear caps! Myabe there is finally more chance for outdoor running instead of treadmill runs.

I found a bug in the system and was back in office yesterday and today,I need to refile my tax as my IR8 form was given to me after I done my efiling!

0307

2008-03-07T06:14:00.000-08:00

昨天我的教练突然打来问我可以不可以请假出席Shinjukai Aikido的二十周年聚会，她的一位学员临时不能出席而多了一张入场券，可以免费给我！

虽然我很想和世界各国的高手切磋和交流，却嫌票价太贵而迟迟不肯买。

今天我终于有机会和日本来的贵宾练和气道，真的是百闻不如一见。我们平时的速度真的是太慢了，我这个4th Kyu有够丢人的。

Hiroshi Tada Shihan已经79岁了，可是一出场就一鸣惊人，他是O Sensei的学生！Ikuhiro Kubota很喜欢做两个Uke的招数，这样一来，简单的基本功就变成高难度的杂技了。

0301

2008-03-02T07:06:00.000-08:00

Retail therapy works, and all of them are bargains, thanks to my aikido friends.

0225

2008-02-25T06:24:00.000-08:00

I just done a 45minute run, my legs are getting very strong, I can do 110lbs leg (4 X15 reptitons)press without a single post-workout muscleache.

They still have not found a replacement since Ws left, my working hours are on par with auditors haha. I pass the psycho test after all, but my documents got lost, so I have to wait. It is time to get ready for 2 more challenges!

The gym that go to now charges $1 for lockers *&$#&*

0217

2008-02-17T06:20:00.000-08:00

I have been working 7 days, exhaustion is an understatement.

If not for my faith, I would have crashed.

0212

2008-02-12T05:40:00.000-08:00

Work has been okay, with things to teach the new intern.

He is very quiet, even more than me in the office. I think that is the way he is, as the days goes by, it seem that he only answered question if you asked him. I am totally fine with it.

I hope I do not drown him with too much information, but he seem to be doing fine, in my opinion. Shall I dig MOE again? I am not sure which is the right route in my career, but I am very sure for all my 28 years, I am comfortable with Chinese.

0209

2008-02-08T23:11:00.000-08:00

新年就这样过了，小玲说如果赢了奖，大家就可以好好地投资房地产，做退休本！

大家开始 visualised!

0208

2008-02-07T21:16:00.000-08:00

I meet up with L and J on Tuesday after work, the kid can talk quite fluently now, at least I understand 80% of what he mumbles. He replied with "erm erm erm" when he does not know the answer to my question, what a proud ego boy haha.

Things seem better, I have got a new boy intern to help me off, The Secret is working after all.

To go to a new place, I need to clear my current work first.

Yesterday I meet up with the usual atlas neighbourhood kakis and talk till early morning.

M look stunning in the dress and G was formal for a change, me and CL was lok as usual. I lost about 7-8 dollars within a few hours gambling cards with Y and CL, ah a Buddhist's sin.

I am still halfway through Life After Death: The Burden of Proof by Deepak Chopra. It was easy to swallow his theories and ideas, simply because of my buddhist background. I have been searching for such book for years. He has the natural ability to join different religions to a central theme.

Think about it this way, since we "die everyday" as we change every single moment, how can we fear death? Were we the same as say..one year ago?

http://www.amazon.com/Life-After-Death-Burden-Proof/dp/0307345785

0202

2008-02-02T06:34:00.000-08:00

我又在死命地找出路，我的头头真的靠不住。我要学会放松，不要让这些无聊的东西影响我的生活。

0123

2008-01-23T05:47:00.000-08:00

星期一的机会，是一条叫做希望的线索。也许我注定要吃这行贩的，没办法。

雨季已经到了尾声，我不需要做跑步机上的“仓鼠”了。

今天我没有从地铁搭巴士回家，而是步行。

我工作到右手腕又一点抽痛，所以必须时时刻刻提醒自己要做手部运动。

0120

2008-01-20T06:15:00.000-08:00

傻瓜会继续有傻福吗？这样不公平，对吗？

0105

2008-01-05T02:43:00.000-08:00

2008 年终于到了，去年做了好多从前没有的事和突破。

我离开五年的旧东家，开始新的工作岗位，现阶段感觉还像是个错误，可是我很肯定一件事，离开绝对是正确的。坦白讲，我蛮喜欢我的工作，这里有很多我可以发挥的地方。

我也因为读了一些积励方面的书籍而开始接触一些新的价值观。我下定决心一定要“清洗”过去乱七八糟的想法和作风。

此外我也交了很多特别的朋友，每一个都给与我不同的新知识和可以学习的价直观。

2007有非常有潜力和风格的苏打禄乐团，我很欣赏他们不向商业市场低头的坚持。

1221

2007-12-21T06:58:00.000-08:00

My day start with the purchasing of my kopi-O at the kopitiam near the station, I request for less sugar for the first time. The auntie sellor says:"What so smart, I prefer mine with more sugar!" I just smiled back. I ordered my healthy You Tau Foo with soup guotiao and chilli (okay not healthy).

I know when I reach the office, I will hear the cleaner's irritating voice, and she never clean our tables properly and complain very few minutes, either about food not thrown away or ants appearing. I "let go" today, in any case she was about to leave when I reach at 845pm, I would say -Perfect timing for a new start of the day.

I continue to read The Secret book during lunch time, with my Subway sandwich(The usual -ColdCut Honeyoat bread with Chiptole Southwest and all vegetables with no onions)

Today the boy LJ boss did not chat with most of us, the lady boss was in extremely good mood, she bid us goodbye before taking the place to her homeland -UK.

I did not run today, but I will do a bit of pumping later, tomorrow I will photocopy my documents for the 2 jobs to apply.

"Sutra" of the day to recite: I must remind myself to hypnotise myself that I got that iron bowl job, I ALREADY GOT that job. I want that job and I will get the job, I already is entitled to that job, I deserved that job.

*Stay positive as always, Zenpoet.

The Secrets By by Rhonda Byrne

2007-12-20T04:32:00.000-08:00

I am going to do an experiment and see if this works. From a Buddhist's point of view, this screams "selfishness" and "self-centeredness", I find it very contradicting to the need for compassion.

I was told of this book which changes a friend's life, out of curiosity I find it similar to meditation/visualization tools in some Buddhist traditions. However the motive is entirely different.
http://www.amazon.ca/Secret-Rhonda-Byrne/dp/1582701709

Zenpoet is going to visualised the following, some will not be listed here, haha:
1) Money-Amount which equals to one year's of salary
2) Full Marathon under 5 hours
3) Friends
4) Good bosses and nice colleagues, good pay and bonus
5) 18% to 20% body fat

1211

2007-12-11T07:13:00.000-08:00

Today is the first time I went to the mega gym near my workplace. This is because I got a one week trial card from the sales manager(SM) at the posh neighbour branch with CL yesterday. I am so sick of the smelly cc gym with pot belly uncles, that I finally admit defeat. That crappy CL asked if the gyms has many sugar mummys/taitais, guess what? Miss SM says yes, especiall in the altas neighbourhood branch and CL says she is so flirtious *slap forehead*...hahaha. I am more into toned nice biceps, butts and abs.

The classes look tough and the music is noisy, but the view from my treadmill is marvellous. They really have big treadmills, equipped with fans! It is not so stressed to workout here as I see many people who do not look fit at all. I am curious on what my biological age is (part of the memebership package treats)

When I have my own home, I will installed my own gym equipments. I saw a 30s angmok with short butch hair doing some difficult backward triceps workout, totally like those yandaos in the glbt personals, I need to distract myself watching TVs before my nose bleeds....

I am very happy with the facility there and the same sales manager saw me and greet me. I am her walking potential moneymaker for now. The price and the logistics are issues, I am thinking of using my yearly endowment cash bonus to pay . Nevertheless,I hope I will not last long enough to move to the new workplace which is not near any of the gym's existing branch.

Soon I can foresee myself logging my daily/weekly mileage and see if I can get myself a "tick" for a full marathon in 2008.

I got my Xmas gift, I got a psychometric test coming, hopefully I do a better job this time, after 6 long years!

Today my manager got arrowed again, poor thing, when it was not even her fault. All I can do is listen to her and shake my head. She says that the culture here is , once you are on leave, you will come back with many arrows as gifts haha. My email server is not even ready for me to send my stuff.

I need to buy calcium tablets.

Dear Jude, your favourite auntie thought that"One, Two, Buckle my shoes..." is a poem instead of a nursey rhythm.

1208

2007-12-08T00:02:00.000-08:00

等一下，会下雨吗？我要去老地方跑步，已经六天没运动脚了。

“感恩”这一块，我还做得不错。

可是我还在学习去如何去包容别人。我恳请当事人至少让我看到他们的一个有点好吗？救救我吧。

我的同事上个星期突然交了辞职信，很快的，下一个就算不是我，也会大有人在。

不过我还是会特地明天回去公司把工作程序（SOP）修订好。这样子当我离开的时候，可以把工作顺利地交给下一个同事。

这个公司的两位老板终有一天会自毁自己辛辛苦苦建立的事业，因为内行人都知道他们的臭名誉了。

广东人有一句话：没有眼看。

1203

2007-12-03T04:57:00.000-08:00

I am taking leave today, tomorrow and Friday. With all the work lag due to the nature of my job scope, I will probably be around during the weekend to speed up the delays. Yes, the managements sucks, but I separate it from my duty. Professionalism and integrity is not for show, it is for yourself. I shall stay put and see how things go, every event in life is a way to learn.

NYP Physiotherapy course only accepts A level students, damn, I really made a wrong choice 9 years ago.

Today, I was out with little J and L. The kid was so high the moment I see him, he was calling me"Ah Yee" at least 3 times. L confused Monday with Tuesday, and almost forgot I was coming, so it was a change of her family visit on Tuesday instead. We succeed in teaching him how to do a "Bill please" stunt, yeah! He was smiling all day with the usual wacky grin.

We went to collect some book at a library and was out for lunch at Villages , formerly known as Marche, at Heeren. Amazingly, there is a playground there, so it was easy for the kid to entertain himself. Of course, he insist we play with him. *roll eyes*

I am going to take a 2nd panadol pill (For Joint and muscle) later, my pain tolerance is high but there is a cutoff point. The price for the painkillers has shot up from $4.6 to $5, thanks for inflation, even Nissan cup noodles has shot up.

It is a pity to die in such a freak accident, Singaporeans will be grieving for the 5 dragon boat hunks. This was made worse by the fact that they were not wearing any life vests. Let us hope some investigations done later can prevent another tragedy.

Although the name is so lousy in a superstitious way, I am all game for the half marathorn on Sundown Night marathorn on 31st May 2008. They actually have a 84km ultra, that is way too cool. I will train harder in the leg department.

http://www.sundownmarathon.com/

With the opening of the mega bookstore in the atlas neighbourhood, I should be hanging there more often. Its time to see old friends tomorrow, miss you guys.

I found out yesterday that HX thinks on the same wavelength as me, there is no issue with Buddhist being Catholic. However, I rarely told anyone this as I fear it might start a controversy, there is enough trouble in this world for another heated debate. People can get overly emotion when it comes to religion issues, I only treat it as a personal faith thing. Most of my friends are catholics and freethinkers, so I do not have the ability and intelligent to change anything.

1202

2007-12-02T00:08:00.000-08:00

I have not blogging for some time as I have been facing problem going into blogspot's blogging site.

Today I did my first SCSM half marathorn, but I am not sure if i really took 2.5 hour to finish it as per my expectation. By the time I am dong, my handphone clock shows 9am, the race starting time is supposedly 6:10, I assume that after cutting off the start delay and toilet break, I should be real on target!

The reason is I am no longer using my give my digital watch. I gave it to my mum as the strap falls off mysteriously and getting a new one cost $20, hence it is not worth the price. I am a real cheapskate. :P

I think I did quite well as I did not have stitch, but my legs was not as strong as my lungs, as by the 18km mark, they were very shaky and tired. I stop to recharge at 2 or 3 heat rub stops. The million dollar question is, can I do a full marathon next year?

1116

2007-11-15T08:38:00.000-08:00

I told my Aikido friends about my cunning rude bosses. It ended up that almost everyone has a story to bitch about work. It is either terrible management, coworkers or bosses or lousy pay, benefits or leave.

I should count my blessings, at least my team, manager and coworkers are decent nice people.

R, my instructor is so funny, she says whether I want the whole gang to come with our weapons set and take revenge for me, ha ha, thanks. Her Sankyo lock is enough to break an arm, no weapons are necessary, she has left many "blue-black" souvenirs for me already.

We met J again, he can call us "Ah Yee" perfectly now, and is getting really naughty. Looks like L is getting skinny fay by day juggling the little giant and school work. I try to beat his palms and made him say sorry to Hx for forcefully taking her glasses off, he still want to smile after punishment! Hx and my clothes for the birthday kid was so big, he look like an underaged hiphop kid who cannot walk properly in oversize clothes.

1102

2007-11-02T07:09:00.000-07:00

工作还是老样子，每天一样上下班，尽量不接电话惹事生非。

天气一样怪怪的，我的鼻子一直在告诉我：空气指数不太好。

Starbuck Signature Ice Cholocate 是我唯一的奢侈饮料，因为我连一小杯的啤酒都不能喝完。

一个人虽然不能改变世界，但是他能做什么去改善周围的问题，或者把东西做得更好？

0717 -Poisoned by anger

2007-10-16T19:32:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, it was the first time I have a shouting match in public. This guy was saying"run faster" and I just snapped. I run way passed him(a cyclist), and gave him the fingers, later he almost knocked into a kid and I turned back and gave a few loud clapping and some thumbs down.

He continued to say "That is it, this is the speed, continue to keep it up" and I shouted "It is not that I cannot run fast, but I do not want to'", "Smokers cannot run anyway","Run with me lah if you dare", I continued to give him fingers even after he cycled across the streets.

I even give him the"I remember your face" hand signal. I bet there are at least 15 people staring at us, let's hope I am not "stomped". What happened to the calm Zenpoet? Repressed anger or? Mum and L asked me not to run there anymore, at least for now.

I so much wish I was a guy, this shall motivate me to pump more irons.

Oct28 race is coming, need to train harder. System was down and my coworker started a 25 minute junk food party, we are indeed the "food" people.

A suddenly send me a message in Friendster, it has been down for a while and my coworkers started a junk food feast/party for about 25 quite some time since I met her. I wonder how she is now, she is always so difficult and deep to understand.

I was drown in the calmness of the heavy downpour yesterday, in the midst of the CBD buzzing chaos. That is tranquility at the lowest basic level, although it was too dark to read my book(lunch kaki) during lunch break.

I hope the Myanmar issue gets resolved soon, the situation do not look good at all. I wonder if UN can really make a success negotation with the Junta. I change my running plan with W, an excorker, to my usual trail playground in the weekend instead. The nasty boy does not only treat his friend like dirt, his ka gia like slaves, but also like primary school kids awaiting detention/punishment. No one will believe this but he has a babyface with that shitty character, looks are indeed deceiving. Strangely I pity him more than detest him, as my faith tells me it is doing him more harm than good to show lack of respect to people.

1002

2007-10-02T03:13:00.000-07:00

Weekend was smashingly good, thanks to Cheer Chen Qi Zhen's concert. Although I am not a hardcore fan of hers, I do appreciate real good music. This is one singer I respect alot as she does not really care about being a celebrity, all she wants is to make music. That explains why she switchl to Indie singng for many years. I wonder why she sign Rock Music, as it is a very commericalised record company, and will surely hold her hostage for her non-so-listen-friendly music.

I hear people talking" the next time she comes, it will be another 10 years"(?!) Anyway, the pretty lad did not talk much, just shyly smile and says she cannot really talk well. After she changed into her 2nd outfit, her songs turn to rock styles and all of us just stand on our chairs, and got high all to the end. I must mention she encho 5 times! Actually I lost count, the news report says 5 times and also mentioned that she did not follow her list of songs to sing, we even saw the cameramen climb back after she start her last few songs. Her band is cool to the max too. Some shouts of "I love you" was ringing thoroughout the show, and she reply either shyly"So do I" or just smile back.

The next time I really go backpack, I will bring along her songs to accompany me too, okay without the safety helmet since I do not ride motorcycle. heehee

Cheer Chen, I LOVE YOU TOO, carry on this spirit of good music, will support you till the end.

0925

2007-09-24T21:28:00.000-07:00

My appointment with my psyiotherapist was cancelled as she was on MC. I ordered my weapon set from Mr Quah yesterday. Weekend was filled with adventure of beg bugs, bumpy bus rides and bad travel agent services. I did not buy much as I don't need much anyway.

My pals are great travel people as well, I think I can jio them for more adventures.

For the first time in my life, I saw beg bugs! Myanmar next year is in my goal, I will go solo if I cannot find people to go with me. Food in KL is great, but I do not fancy buk ku teh as the pork was too much for my liking. I finally has a 2007 stamp chop on my passport, this year's quota is met!(lack of money and time for more travel)

Work is fine, maybe it is too easy and routine, but I am fine as long as I can have my own quality time outside work.

0912

2007-09-11T18:35:00.000-07:00

Oh shit, the desperate ex coworker (aka breast starer and friendster blog self-promoting egoist) has sign up for 21km scsm as well. The scsm should issue a warning to stop female runners from running in their bra top-without-shirt only, as some idiots like him will ogle and ogle at their nei.

Some people are just so disgusting and never realised it, CL and I were laughing when she says he ask her out again. (Want me to help you poke his eyeballs?)

Life is peaceful in the office as usual, my dept coworker(I call her the kid) keep saying sorry each lunch time. Silly gal, not everyone likes to eat in groups, no worries, dear xiaomei.

0908

2007-09-08T04:23:00.000-07:00

I met up with new coworkers to eat dim sum at this neighbourhood place, it is not crowded at all and apparently not much publicity has invaded this place yet. That is really cool. They all bought toto and 4D later, but I did not buy since it is individual buying and not group ones.

My manager only know she need to travel overseas for tomorrow and Monday at 5 pm+ yesterday, she and the others have been working till 10pm, tiring job yeah. There is so much action and buzz here, wow, wow, compared to D, the sleepy town. I used up half of my Istean vouchers, not sure what else to buy for the remaining ones.

0905

2007-09-05T03:05:00.000-07:00

现在的工作地点是商业区,所以我很早就起身去上班,避开过多的人群.

一天的开始,总该留给自己一些时间享受难得的宁静, 一边以便喝咖啡,一边看报纸.

我和往常一样,顽固地穿轻便的衣服上班, 跟其他上班族挤交通工具时,显得格格不入.

这就是我们这行的好处吧. 不过,我会渐渐改变穿着,因为我年纪不小了.

上个星期五和小玲的朋友玩得太疯了,以后要提醒自己:不能喝啤酒.

0904

2007-09-04T06:20:00.000-07:00

Settling down in new job, the progam system is like advanced excel, but it is my eyes that is tired. I should politely ask to lunch alone, hope I won't appear too arrogant, but it is better to have some out to recharge. I don't really have much to chat with my new coworkers, but they are nice guys.

0821

2007-08-20T20:31:00.000-07:00

也许人越大，烦恼也相对地提高,太多乱七八糟的责任,叫人吃不消。

好多所谓的坚持,都变得没有意义,像一杯冷掉的咖啡,不能再继续喝下去了.

年少的痴狂,青春的昂扬,或者是幼时的单纯,都一点一滴地消失掉.

就这样, 怎么也找不会来了.

保持距离,才不会差伤彼此; 可是要付出多少代价, 有没有人去计算过.

0820

2007-08-20T02:06:00.000-07:00

There is no training this week, it is supposed to rain today, if this is indeed so, then today is indoor running. My mum did not turn off the stove and head straight to work. I gave her a good scolding. What if I thought she is still at home and goes to work, while my brother is still sleeping? Does she realise the dreadful consequences? It is dangerous enough that some idiots in the house do not lock the outside door at midnight.

0817

2007-08-16T10:09:00.001-07:00

I should have ask for 3 weeks' notice, there is nothing for me to do in the office, I cannot sleep..

0816

2007-08-15T21:29:00.000-07:00

I went to met S for dinner yesterday, glad to know she is doing well in her new job.

We are more or less in the same industry, and I promised her to check out some finanical planning experts that I knew, just to see if it fits into her project profile needs. She actually push away 2 job offers this year (mega companies) to do what she liked.

I admired her courage, to choose passion for money. She ask why I did not take the translation thing instead, the reason is quite simply because it does not pay for a career.

0813

2007-08-12T22:37:00.000-07:00

I had a long gossip chat with Y, but it is remains at top secret, we shared confidential information.

It is official, the Ghost festival is starting, I had to lay off the road pounding and hit the gym, with all respect to the good brothers.

My stamina has not been the best, and neither is the air quality. It is time to say hello to the bodybuilders, skinny teenagers and muscle Marys. I will increase my dumbbell repetition sessions at home.

0810

2007-08-10T02:42:00.000-07:00

今天和同事吃饭，聊了少，她还送我东西。前天，我的另外两位同事还请我吃一顿，真有一点儿不好意思。

昨天我跑了五十多分钟，星期二我只跑了二十四分钟，我要吃多一点来充电。

大姐还是以她一贯的方式来“酸”我，无聊透！人长这么大却还那么幼稚。

realrun.sg

2007-08-03T05:45:00.000-07:00

http://www.realrun.sg/event.html

Dist: 15km and 10km eventsLocation: Changi Exhibition CentreDate : 28 Oct 07Time : 7:30am - 15kmTime : 7:45am - 10kmRACE ROUTE15km Route - 12km Road, 1km Sand, 1km Trail and 1km Runway10km route - 7km Road, 1km Sand, 1km Trail and 1km Runway

Done with online registration.

0731

2007-07-31T06:15:00.000-07:00

I told P, A, C on my plan and will be adding more contacts in my list. This is a close knit fraternity, I have to ensure we keep our ties strong. I have to stop laughing at people's final incorrect estimation of my plan. The next 2 things i need to do is to continue to beg and ask dajie and daddie for good testimonials and ask them to be my future referrals. I will miss the people here, but it is time for me to take a peek outside and take a huge risk. I did a 35 mins run, yesterday's aikido was tough H, my senior is back and she demonstrate a good elbow final lock*ouch*

0729

2007-07-29T06:13:00.000-07:00

I met up with L and J, asking L on Hr stuff, she is becoming my personal Hr consultant already, soon she will put me in her case study essays. C:

J is my usual sunshine, he keep kissing me when I ask him too. I have absolute no doubt that we are either lost-lost buddies from some past lives, or known each other before this lifetimes.

Cl's coworker is so autistic, she reminds me of myself, sitting in the pathetic corner in secondary
school among the bitches, I think it does affect me in many ways even decades now, but I am not sure how though. The world is always having a silent prejudice to introverted/quiet people, I train myself not to be the old quiet gal who gets all the verbal bully. I am still trying very hard, hopefully T can learn not to take all the unnecessary craps from people before she toughten up.

0727

2007-07-27T05:13:00.000-07:00

Finally I send the letter today. Dajie was asking so much question, but I am sure I make the right choice. I wanted to keep going with the lie about taking a break and study. And hey who will believe me, even she knows I am out with a plan, so many weird leave. I am thepractical type, leaving no space for passion inside my office,beside money. I need to jump out of this comfort zone, there is no more room for me to grow in this area.

I am going to take a look at that gym and later watch Ricebowl. Imagine being force to watch something you do not fancy, yes it is my job now.

0725

2007-07-25T05:20:00.000-07:00

"I like you, you are smart."

I make it, but it will be a tough long run ahead of me, I am looking at ultramarathon in the race of my career, I can wait. A little shin pain or a recurring ITB injury does not kill me, it makes me stronger.

I realise one new thing: Acting cocky can actually make people think you are confident, as long as if you are not too-over-the top. It does not even matter if you are not even confident of speaking well in English. Zenpoet must remember to keep the head smaller, and feet firmly stick to the ground.

Kinderen voor Kinderen song - Two Fathers

2007-07-17T07:18:00.001-07:00

That was in Dutch, a very powerful message sent.

0716

2007-07-16T06:57:00.000-07:00

I was eating at a coffee shop (aka kopitiam) and this old man was drinking 3 bottles of beer. He kept saying loudly nonstop about:
- Young people having a easy life and it is too expensive to have many kids
- Kids are now having hand phones and are spoilt
-Young working class like ME waste money to eat out instead of home cooked food.
If life is so bad, why are you wasting money drinking those stupid expensive beer, for God's sake?

I have had enough and changed my tables, I just want to enjoy a peaceful hot dinner after a tired day at work. Why cannot old people be like Q-San, be dignified,skillful, with a quiet and strong personality. That is all you need to gain that respect, to h*ll with your age or seniority!
He remind me of daddy, honestly I do not care if he disappear now in front of my eyes.

My aunt came last weekend and bitch that "poor daddy" is sitting alone in coffee shop like a bachelor, doesn't he have a family? Oh yes, he used to, but he trashed it all, even mum, the good perosn, hangs around with her friends more than him, obviously she does not give any respect to him anymore as well. I eat and drink alone all the time, and have I ever whin? Mum says why did not I greet auntie? Why should I bother when she is putting me down since I was a baby? My mouth is only useful for quarrel with idiots like her.

I do not give a fu*king damn if you are 3 or 80, if you have some self-respect and stop being a nuisance, you will get the respect you wish for.

I just give a "double thumb down" to a blue-collar-working tanned man, he was doing that irritating whistle while I run. I decide not to give him the finger in case I get beaten up, no way I can put up with any verbal insults. He give a shocked look,. :) My dear friend, next time I make sure I do a shoulder rub if you do it again. If you dare touch me I will shout molest. CL told me this is a a gal's way to get away with physical assaults.

I am probably in a fury mood these days, when will I slam that chair into 3 peices?

On a better note, the Friday meeting was a breeze, we end up like chatting and bitching about this vendor's super low quality work, but expectation wise. I might have some issues with the place, can they pay higher?

Butch hunt was a eye opener, Lane is a hottie, but I cannot see properly in the dark. Calvin is braless in white top:( I should have go to the front of the stage. The smoking ban is a nonsmoker's dream comes true! :)

Youtube takes forever to download L word.*yawns* If not for Shane... I wont be bother to wait.

I seem to have slight flu symptoms and skip Aikido, I brought all my barangs (equipment and clothes). My new coworker says that on Friday, the flu bug seem to erupt. Oh no, the hot weather seem to return after a week of breeze.

I register online or the half marathon, time to find a clinic to do body check, stop procrastinating.

0712

2007-07-12T03:24:00.000-07:00

明天请假，不知道还能做什么节目，可能去老地方跑步，再出去走走。今晚会去“玩”吗？不知道，哈哈。

下班！

2007-07-10T03:32:00.000-07:00

可能是黑色星期五的怪运气作祟，希望如此。

看似无路，其实是柳暗花明又一村？

Sodagreen -Xiao QIng Ge

2007-07-09T06:57:00.001-07:00

Sodagreen Xiao Qing Ge

One of the best new songs I have heard so far, must keep a lookout for this band,the voice is way out of this-world-good, and weird at the same time. Although he push the androynous border a little too far, I think he is a sweet guy, at least a nice friend.

M told me of this new independent singer call Zhang Xuan, I cannot feel anything from her voice or her songs except a wannabe-Chen-Qi-Zhen(Cheer Chan) . Maybe the vocals is too weak or I need to listen her live before I can appreciate her voice. I need more time.

Yesterday's run was a pathetic 69minutes 20s econds, but the good news is my stitch is so minor I run the whole run and my ITB were tolerable. I do not have problem walking up the stairs like usual, its time to do more speed run.
My brother has not fix the Chinese Chararter program in my PC yet...

0706

2007-07-06T01:20:00.000-07:00

老爹说大姐这样堕落下去，恐怕大家都一起被连累，人在江身不由己。

即使我已经做到可以对说有的人不屑一顾，对你我仍然没辙。

昨天我跑了整整50分钟，状态还算好。看着青峰的部落格，对他非常欣赏。

都是中文系的，可是我却差这么多。既没天分，也没理想，更没勇气做自己。

0705

2007-07-04T19:59:00.000-07:00

今年，我又没有忘记你的生日，真的受不了这种无谓的坚持。

十几年的时光就这样悄悄地消磨掉，而你变得更市侩了吗，还记得我吗？

我和大多数上班族一样，天天带着面具做“人际”战争。

没法子，适者生存，弱肉强食，你技术不如人，就得弃权。其实我的水准还有待进步，比起一些EQ白痴，比起从前，好多了。：）

很遗憾，我们的梦想最终可能只是梦想。我总是希望更多个人空间作自己热爱的事。

小奇说人如果好好地包装自己，在求职方面一定可以占优势，我要加油啦。

可是到头来，我心里很明白，最勇敢的人才能够义无反顾地最求梦想，而最大的绊脚石空怕是自己。

小林一伙死党说如果赢了“多多”，就马上去南美洲玩，何止呢，我看还得去台湾再疯一回。

我们正在打算一起去便宜的小岛玩，我好久没出国玩了。

昨天跑步时旧伤小发作，所以只跑了半小时。我的膝盖好像随时会罢工，摆脱你们不要在周末发疯。

爸越来越靠不住了，他连银行簿都藏起来，不让妈察看，男人一有钱就变成魔鬼，根本不值得依靠。如果他不给弟弟大学费，我不会就此罢休的。这下三烂。

看见大学同学做自己喜欢的新闻工作，为她高兴，毕竟曾经一起实习两个多月。

该不该厚着脸皮去参加比赛？

我不是不要对你们诚实，而是你们是否可以抛开世俗的偏见，接受真是的，独立，的我？

而我是不是可以坦然的面对最大的敌人？

为何地球一直在公转自转，时间也不会为谁而停留，我却原封不动，徘徊在原点？自由是自我陶醉的状态吗，还是苦苦修炼才能成功？

0703

2007-07-03T08:02:00.000-07:00

Over the weekend, we gather at L's place, the boy has grown up a lot, he has many ideas of his own, and his personality is getting bigger. He is very fascinated by cranes, when we leave and share a cab, he kept pointing to all the construction site cranes along the way to us, indeed he is a typical boy.

P say she might go ECP to blade with her sisters, and so may contact me if I am still around after the race. I need to get new ITB strap, I am not sure if I should take painkillers for such small race as I seem to be have mild allergic to Panadol, hmm.

0629

2007-06-29T07:19:00.000-07:00

It is a rainy days on a Friday night,that ruins my running plan.

I was shocked to be asked to translate English to Cantonese, I supposed I screwed up again, looks like its back to square one. A pure Cantonese who cannot speak Cantonese well, I am totally a loser in dialect and how was I supposed to convince them I can understand but not speak well? I totally admitted defeat, this is my weakness point!

No wonder they look so familiar, I met them before, those 2 in Butch Hunt2007. CL was saying maybe we can go and show them support, I asked J in workplace as well. I have to pick up my ECP race goody bag tomorrow.

2007-06-27T03:11:00.000-07:00

我的师兄，A刚考到1st Dan，hakama 总是很神奇般地让男人帅到爆。

我是因为热爱和气道才肯穿裙的，很可笑是吗？

昨天和小林看《刺青》，片子水准不高，不过那个港星真的让人喷鼻血，，干吗不让她脱多一点，杨小姐的身材没什么看头，却露很多。。。

那个刺青这么难看，也可以成为整个片子的主题，我的天啊！

0620

2007-06-19T21:52:00.000-07:00

I was invitied for the pre-selection test, I have to cross fingers again.

I had to postpone meeting L and J, the kid can count up to 20!!

Yesterday, I went to gym I did a 10 min 7Km/hr run, and some weight workouts mainly on my shoulders.

I will be doing my usual 1 hour run later at night.

Aikido class was stiff and awkward, I crash my feet right onto my senior's toes, that was so clumsy and uncool.

公司里一个挺娘的家伙老是找碴，真的是伤脑筋，每个人下班后，不都一样，想回家跷个脚休息。。。

物价快上涨了，要好好处理财务预算！咖啡乌从六毛变成七毛了啦！

周末出门时，赫然发现这个人和她的“partner"在我家一带，我一直都有追看她的博客，她是2003 Butch hunt 的前三名得奖者。

http://www.cryce.blogspot.com/

sgsecret

2007-06-09T00:59:00.000-07:00

I found this here, but not from me lah haha

http://community.livejournal.com/sgsecrets/159335.html

Underground by Haruki Murakami

2007-06-03T01:03:00.000-07:00

As I have mentioned earlier, I wanted to get this for some time. Pageone is now having 20% sale for English books so I got this.

Looking at this terrorism that happened 12 years ago, I cannot help having this eerie feeling of saying that it will happen again, even in Singapore. It is so easy to brainwash people in the name of religionor other higher means, in any cash-rich, soulless urban city.

I point mid fingers at 3 Thai/Fillipinos-looking foreigner workers while running, after they start laughing and imitating me running. After which, I sped off at record-breaking speed (if I can maintain that speed for anther few hours, I can definitely qualify for the Boston marathon), I almost collapse as I have reach more than 95% of my maximum heart rate.

R says my action is awesome, L says I am brave, I told L that runner high makes me cranky and violent again.

http://www.amazon.com/Underground-Tokyo-Attack-Japanese-Psyche/dp/0375725806

0601

2007-06-01T07:20:00.000-07:00

I only got this book, the Chinese translated version of this book from the book fair, it is rare to find such a topic/study.

After nearly two decades as a university professor, the author (writing under a pseudonym) realized she was out of touch with her students. She didn't understand them. They no longer stopped by her office for consultations, no longer did assigned readings or participated in class discussions; they openly took naps in class, brought in food and drink, and behaved as though their education was of no importance to them. Looking for a way to close the gap between her and her students, Nathan enrolled in her own university as a freshman. Over the year, she gained an understanding and appreciation of contemporary college life. She found that many students who seemed uninterested in the whole idea of school were actually intensely curious and passionate about their education. They weren't the problem; the institution of learning was. This book offers insightful exploration of contemporary higher education and fascinating commentary on the ways in which the system has not kept up with the ever-changing needs of its students.

http://www.amazon.com/My-Freshman-Year-Professor-Becoming/dp/0801443970

I realized that I can never forget this quote from "Brokeback Mountain":
I wish I knew how to quit you

0529

2007-05-29T05:42:00.000-07:00

L tell me not to miss the chance if I can step into the "goldmine", so that I can afford better quality, more expensive biscuits for my lovely godson.

I am not really that ambitious, but this is definitely not the end of the long term career plan, it is a very good starting point though. Hx says she do not see why I cannot do this job, yes considering I am rather thickskinned as I get older. I do see the point, since I am suitable for operational jobs, I might as well get into the line that pays the most.

0529

2007-05-28T21:59:00.000-07:00

I took half day leave, later I want to jogthis week.

I miss this episode of Dexter as I need my sleep.

The new British-Jap guy is cute, haha.

Tornado!

2007-05-24T23:58:00.000-07:00

I swear I saw one outside my office building, in SINGAPORE!
Eyeopener...

0525

2007-05-24T22:09:00.001-07:00

My brother's PC crashed, he needs a CPU, for my case, he says I just need to reconfigurate my Windows XP. I will probably need to sponser him.

I will be meeting J on Saturday, successful Chinese teacher, something I cannot do. You need a strong character to be a teacher in Singapore, it is a crazy system.

100.3Fm, - "Anna's Closet" Radio show, although it is a bit "Aunt Agnoy" sometimes, but it is a really nice show, makes you think hard.

Will Rita accept Dexter's dark side one day?

She seem to be escaping from facing the truth, as warned by her ex-husband that Dexter is not who he really is. So who is the real monster?

The one who kills serial killer and kills and/or punish those who slip through the system of the law due to lack of evidence and pure luck?

or the Wife abuser?

Will one be able to face their dark side, their past, the shadows of the past, their real self?

0523

2007-05-22T20:08:00.000-07:00

有时我真的希望快快过着独住的生活，和人在一起住好累。

为了省钱，没办法，唯有强忍，睁一眼闭一眼。

0518

2007-05-17T20:56:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I really cannot stand by coworkers's inability to protect privacy, they want to keep things hush at one point on J's pregnancy yet talk so freely about it, so irony.

Thats is why I kept low profile here, I cannto trust anyone anyway.

Personally, I think its pretty rude to ask about people's lifesyle, and I might it clear I am not the type to spill anything even if you insist.

A coworker from the Japan office died of stoke, I only saw her months ago in a conference/forum, she is only in her mid 30s and she is a heavy smoker.

This is life, better seize the day!

0514

2007-05-13T22:14:00.000-07:00

Updates to the past week:

1) Study my Actuarial stuff -Boring, but I hope to make it, if not, at least keep my brain working hard.(not only my muscles and heart)

2) I went to Kinokuniya bookstore and Orchard National library with Hx after helping out at the special art class, as she wanted to borrow Chinese language Japan travel guides for her upcoming trip.

3) I end up borrowing this book- by my number one Running Idol, I only saw one copy in Borders Bookshop months ago (That copy was too battered for me to fork out so much to buy)
This runner made my running so insignificant, but also made me feel normal :)
http://www.amazon.com/Ultramarathon-Man-Confessions-All-Night-Runner/dp/1585422789

4) My fat ratio remains at 23%, not bad but I aim to keep it to 21-22%.

5) I went jogging for both weekends and sign up for this "PassionRun" race at East Coast Park on July 8. The weather at 530 pm to 7pm after the rain was great, with the "after-rain" sweet smell of nature.
http://www.singaporepassionrun.com/cgi-bin/passionrun/pp.cgi?set=home

6) My new copy of Runners World came(June issue), that was a story which was quite funny:
"The Girl who Started it All- First Female runner of Boston Marathon"
http://www.runnersworld.com/article/0,7120,s6-243-297--11735-0,00.html

7) I probably need to do a basic health check before trying out this December's 21km (My first)

8) The first night F1 race will be held in Singapore!! wow, when will there be more world class marathon here? (I heard there will be more upcoming Triathlon and Iron man events)

0505

2007-05-05T03:29:00.000-07:00

Today I went for the second time to help up in the Play class for high functioning autistic/special needs kids.

Hx could not join me, it is understandable since she is often out clubbing on Friday nights and the location is rather far from her house.

There was a boy whom I first saw, he was not able to communicate with us at all. I was a bit lost on how to help out.

It turn out that he does not rather need much attention, as most of the time,he is singing and running around; and not really at risk of hurting himself or others.

I thought it was a such a sad thing as he actually has very nice facial features, and look normal like most the the kids here.

I went for a trim at Orchard Far East Plaza after helping out at the afternoon special kids arts class .

In addition, I finally bought my asics shoes. Initially I wanted to buy this super bright orange shoes which was $139 after discount but the salesgal says it is a trainers for indoor/cross training. I decide to raise my budget to get this $170(after discount) GT-2120 cushioning shoes instead. It make sense, because I believe the former wil not even last me for half a year. It is an incentive that the model looks nice, but all running shoes are ugly in my opinion, as compared to sneakers like good old-school Converse.

I hereby announce that my current Mizuno is going to retire from running soon, I am just trying to extend her working running life to save money.

Hx says life is becoming increasingly meaningless, I suggest she get a boyfriend, maybe a younger one if marriage is not her type of tea. She says everyone says the same thing but there is not the root of the problem.

I also suggest Aikido, but i doubt she is interested, none of my friends are interested anyway haha.

Hx suggest we go jogging at M next week after the afternoon class, a favourite hangout for hardcore long distance trail runners, I am all for it.

Given a chance, I will rather do outdoor runs, but in an urban city, it is not logistically convenient, especially for a lone female runner in a 9-5 job.

0503

2007-05-02T22:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, it was the first time after many years that I did treadmill running again.
I stretch a while before running, although it is still tight, my left ITB still did not act up, even without my strap.

I will do the same today, its crowded there but not as bad as the public gym nd no need to queue for treadmills. My left adidas shoe's mouth opened yesterday, it needs to be fixed. It seem that shoes are not long lasting these days, not only Nike ones. This adidias shoes is waterproof, although not as comfortable as my Puma but it serves well in the recent rainy days.

0430

2007-04-29T20:57:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I went to my usual hangout at C's area, then ask her out for coffee.

Her love life is a colourful roller coaster once again! Then we meet G and M to eat dumplings at chinatown, and meet at a pub with C 's friends. Finally C showed us her ah nei bf hahaha.

Today S asked me if it was true, she cannot believe it too.

The gals in our office must be so relieved to know that the psycho nerd aka"nei-starer" is leaving.

Saturday went to gym but forgot it closed at 6pm, salah...

0424

2007-04-23T21:23:00.000-07:00

Today I woke up again to watch the second episode of Dexter at 4am ( second repeats), damn good show, even if I risk becoming a walking zombie it is okay.

Have anyone explore their one dark side once a while?

The next two repeats are on 10am and 4pm, no chance for a 9-6 office worker to watch.

Yesterday's training was tough, I earned about 4 bruises on my wrists/arms. The only good thing about being a senior is that the boys no longer treat you like a girl. This is what i always yearn for all my life.

Sometimes I wonder why girls like to wear those stupid high heels that will one fine day injure their back, feet and spines. How do they run fast in them?

Who invent these silly skirts and dresses that risk being zao geng?

I never can understand, maybe I came from outer planet. I prefer the smart, clean cuttings ,especially that of men's clothing, at least nowadays got smaller size mens lines like Bods and topmen ( thanks to the gays' emerging markets), otherwise not much choice for androynous gals liao.

Another skill I learn form working if to do small talk, you know by talking craps with new people I met and find out about a little bit more about them in a matter of minutes. This is something I never can do in the past.

Hx's friend says I am a bit psycho as the only staement I make is "Against fishing. " Well you will kill those who do fishing wah" Nice try , but I do not even dare to scold people who jump queue in the interchange. LMAO

Q-San says that through his years of observation, it is only those who come alone, rather than those who come with groups of friends, will stay in Aikido training for many many years.
YEAH, independent people always know what they want ;) He says so while pointing to us at the same time.

X is getting sticky again, I told her I was not free last week and went out to vivocity alone, Pageone is really a nice place to nuah and check out books.

0423

2007-04-23T03:30:00.000-07:00

I gonna go training soon, quick blogging here.

My leave is appoved, bringing little hunk to see flying objects.

I will let Lyn check through my essays before submitting.

My Financial planner called and say she will meet me to tidy up my policy. Good thing, my room is in a mess again. I almost want to get the giant duffel bag, it is big enough to hold an adult chopped up body, I like it, very rugged and butch haha, very zenpoet. It is for my thick Gi and barongs only.

0420

2007-04-19T20:36:00.000-07:00

昨天天气非常好，不过我只跑了四十分钟, 因为太累了。

今天我会去健身，明天去和小娴帮忙特殊小孩的画画班

陈奕迅爱情转移曲:christopher chak 词:林夕

2007-04-19T19:59:00.000-07:00

原来陈奕迅可以用这种方式唱歌，他的Key 竟然可以这么高。
林夕的歌词依然保有水准。

徘徊过多少橱窗
住过多少旅馆
才会觉得分离也并不冤枉
感情是用来浏览
还是用来珍藏
好让日子天天都过得难忘

熬过了多久患难
湿了多长眼眶
才能知道伤感是爱的遗产
流浪几张双人床
换过几次信仰
才让戒指义无反顾的交换

把一个人的温暖转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样
享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊
回忆是捉不到的月光握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转
等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站
想开往地老天荒
需要多勇敢

烛炮照亮了晚餐
照不出个答案
恋爱不是温馨的请客吃饭
床单上扑满花瓣
拥抱让它成长
太拥挤就开到了别的土壤
感情需要人接班
接近换来期望
期望带来失望的恶性循环
短暂的总是浪漫
漫长总会不满
烧完美好青春换一个老伴

把一个人的温暖转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样
享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊
回忆是捉不到的月光握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转
等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站
想开往地老天荒
需要多勇敢

把一个人的温暖转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样
享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊
回忆是捉不到的月光握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转
等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站
想开往地老天荒
需要多勇敢
你不要失望
荡气回肠是为了
最美的平凡

0418

2007-04-17T20:47:00.000-07:00

I saw H, my senior after work yesterday, I thought she is IT line, but she says she is in E line, so she also has to be posted everywhere. She told me she was from another Aikido school previously and took 8 years to reach 1st Kyu in S.A.

Yesterday I went to gym and saw all the equipment rearranged in different position, I mainly worked on my upper arm, shoulders and forearm. I crashed to bed halfway through study.

0413

2007-04-12T22:10:00.000-07:00

Taking less than split seconds to answer: What is your passion?
Mine is sports, although I look neither sporty nor healthy. L says F&B/customer service, Hx wil defintiely say food or travel. Looking at the state we are, reality is sad. Tomorrow I will be going to volunteer help our K, Hx's friend look after kids in a drawing class.

0412

2007-04-12T02:09:00.000-07:00

I am back to aikido training, later I will be going to gym. My quads need to wake up to work hard. All the recents issues in work, I wonder what next. Worst to worst, I got nice excuse to start new goals.

Yesterday hit the books for 2 hours, the calculators came but no warrenty card are found. hmm

Ii think aikido can not only build biceps, but triceps too. One week's off and my triceps are aching already.

M, CL and G went to Kbox to celebrate my brithday and crapping as usual. All of us so tired mahz.

0409

2007-04-09T03:25:00.000-07:00

Sab,Hx and L made prepare and made my birthday gift right in front of my face.

They print and cut photos of J and I since he was 1 one month boy, a bit rushed but cool gift.

The boy was very sticky to me, and even ask me to kiss him at one point, driving Sab and Hx to madness as usual, my position as favourite auntie is as solid as gold.

We have decided to have same type of gift this year, so creative. :P

I did 2 rounds in my usual playground but was running very very slowly, because my lungs was still full of phlegm, seriously, I run until from bright day to night time.

I might push the CBT test to August, fighting with time again.

Sab got this Malaysia mountain trekking lobang, I am so tempted, see how lor, it is within my budget though! She got this 5.6km friendly run organised by her company, I and Hx might join her as illegal runners.

0405

2007-04-05T02:33:00.000-07:00

So many people in holiday mode now, I got to get the calculator soon, having some problem, with amazom.com's address update.
I should be able to run this weekend, have to skip one Aikido this week, after a good 9 week record attendence.

Weekend KTV cancelled again. Somehow I am glad I don't have to see aiyi again, otherwise my big day will be spoiled. I think I will try hard tolerate for the sake of the rest, but no way I can pretend nothing is happening. I check with Hx, she says she will be angry if in my shoes. As for Sab, she thinks we both interpret things wrong way. I do not think expecting an explanation is too much to ask for.

0403

2007-04-02T21:55:00.000-07:00

Quote from http://www.unique-frequency.com/

Dexter: I find people around me are all making some kind of connection, like friendship… or romance. But human bonds always lead to messy complications. Commitment. Sharing. Driving people to the airport. Besides if I let someone get that close, they’d see who I really am. And I can’t let that happen. So, time to put on my mask.

Harry: Dexter, women are different from men. I’m saying they have a whole different experience with things. When they’re with someone physically, they feel connected. And they know when you’re not. They can sense it ‘cause you’re very exposed. Dexter: I can fake it Harry: you can learn to fake a lot of things. This is a tough one.
i'm one up on you ladies. i don't even need to be with someone physically to feel the connection/disconnection.
you know something is wrong when you're picking up "relationship" stuff from a show about serial killers.

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Faking is also when everyone says wars are bad and yet every country need to build up military power to cover their ass, just in case.

If you kill people in a war, technically it is not considered inapporiate.

You hate to kill, yet can do fishing without feeling for the fish, go imagine someone picking up your lip with a hook and this is his hobby.

Faking is when you hate to look at people in their eyes, it makes you feel naked emotionally, yet it is rude not to do so, and so you jolly well do so, and shut up.

Wahlao, my auntie coworkers were talking entirely about childbirth during lunch time, kena forced to eat their cooked food, I yearn to be freed in my private lunch break manz. I guess the forture teller is right, I cannot hide my emotions leh, my body language was screaming"spare me!!"

Darkly Dreaming Dexter

2007-04-01T00:59:00.000-07:00

I saw this series promo of Dexter on FoxCrime Channel, the original novel of which it was based on in season one has a interesting plot

http://www.amazon.com/Darkly-Dreaming-Dexter-Jeff-Lindsay/dp/038551123X

0330

2007-03-30T07:36:00.000-07:00

I woke up with swollen eyes, and cannot work, have to see doctor again. The GP says she suspect I am allergic to panadol (in huge dosages). I was quite surprised as this is such a common drug.

My comments to her was: In that case, it would be very important to be sure, as in the event of an emergency, panadol would likely be administered. I was told that 2007 is a good year for Monkey, I doubt so!

Finally I figure out integration by parts, working on Multivariance now.

0328

2007-03-28T05:07:00.000-07:00

I got the flu bug and is on medical leave today, my department is preparing a birthday lunch for ZX. I do not have fever but my head feels dizzy, finally I also contract the flu bug from someone, probably in the office. I told my mum, (she called yesterday that she is in Gao1Xiong1 now) that my older brother's foot seem to be swollen again, she says she will drag him to a specialist once she is back.

Argh Taiwan, a place so fun and you do not have to speak English at all!

0323

2007-03-22T22:20:00.000-07:00

I went running yesterday after the rain, the weather is great, it drops the PSI significantly. However I had to make a sudden stop for a rat to cross my path, damn it, and my left shin start acting.

I got one month free membership to cali gym, the super notorious gym chain, thanks to my GE leady health insurance.