0927

昨天我在健身房运动完后，便到附近一家咖啡馆喝冰可可, 这家店是几个星期前装修完后重新开张营业的。

我被收银员搞乱了，叫错了饮料，很幸运的是，其中一位反应超快的服务生非常有礼貌，她马上说我可以无条件换成冰可可，真叫人受宠若惊/感动！

这里聚集了非常多的"拉子",我想她们也怀疑起我来了,我选了一个最角落的位子静静地看书,尽量避开她们的眼神.

别忘了,这里是新加坡,有一个出了名"口碑": 服务精神很差的国家.

我在那里呆了一个多钟头看一本英文书:"The Wisdom of Imperfection -The Challenge of Indivduation in Buddhist Life" by Rob Preece.

这是我最近在百升楼的 Awareness 书店发现的佛教文学宝物，作者的一些看法非常独特和发人深省。

今天的的空气素质很差,可是我还是坚持去跑步,现在要去准备了!

0924

http://greatworldrun.blogspot.com/

Urgh! Had I known about this one day earlier I would have run with him, way to go man!

He is such a low-profiled figure , no one would have realise he is not just another runner.

I think I screw up the interview, but X enlighened me with her advice.

All my life , I have been pushing myself in my studies, I am not having any challenges in life, so I guess I need to find a solution in a different direction.

I bought something for little J, some children's VCDs stuff, hope he like it,

He is finally one year old! He has been learning very fast, now he can drink using straw, I can chase him around (in the past only he chased people) and he can climb up the tall sofa(I witness him picking up the tricks in a matter of minutes..).

0914

这是我第一次买“多多”。

如果我赢大奖的话，我会还清大学的债，买一张单程机票到外国半工半读半跑。

哈哈，才怪，我应该还是过着同样的生活，买一栋公寓租出去吧，因为我是超级现实的新加坡人。

0913

再过一阵子,我就去楼下一带跑步,我尽量增加摄取多两份的蛋白(从2到4),朝18% fat ratio目标迈进!

那个tricep machine 好难做!

星期天我会非常忙,因为我跑完Terry Fox Run之后,就要冲去拍和气道4th Kyu考试.

之后的下午,我又要回办公室作软件测试.

不要问我为什么又有要回去原点,我想给自己四年的机会看看是否可以当老师, ok.

因为我想不到有什么理由不教书,有什么工作可以让我至少觉得更有种活着的感觉和挑战的激发力.

我希望教育部至少给我一个机会面试.

既然价值观不同, 就很难说下去了,放手是为了给你和给我自由.

0911

也许这是一件好事，我可以更清楚，更客观地看待一直存在，却懒得正视的问题。

我曾经读过J.D Salinger的自传 （ "Catcher in the Rye"的作者），他是那种"When I am done with someone, I am done with someone"的人。

当我读到那一段句子的时候，仿佛找到了一个知音。

我可以给很多，很多机会，可是如果我最终放弃一个人的时候，他就会从此在我的世界里被删除掉。

因为我不想继续逼自己面对一个有毒物，他会干扰我平静的生活，英文俗称这些人"toxic people"

星期六出门的时候，妈妈说有一位朋友的朋友之类的，他经常跑步，可是四十多岁就心脏病暴毙 .

我想她在暗示我跑步太多会危害健康，我对她说：“如果这个仁兄没有常常跑步的话，他那个烂基因恐怕早在二十岁时就发作了,他“买"二十年的寿命..."

0907

At least for now, Hx do not seem too disgusted at my proposal of a Taiwan race in late 2007 (21 km at least ), as compared to a India(New Delhi) one. She think I am "losing" when she heard"India", haha. Yes, I love Taiwan too, no need to speak English there, and the people are so nice!

She is the crazy traveller too, can plan can zao4 me, can babysit me, and I in turn can be only serve as her walking alarm clock. The only way to make her save miracleously is to travel!

I have more problems with sleeping, but yesterday was slightly better, yet I can still wake up early/on time leh. Sianz... I should learn to relax more.

Later I have my 2nd aikido class at Dojo B(weapon training for at least 20 minutes), I miss 2 classes liao.

The people here are more "steady" in skills, (Read: minimum 5 years experience) so I can forced myself to train harder.

0905

No one knows whether they will die tomorrow, this is so true; I found this line from a wannabe-comeback runner-blogger.

It is true for me as well:
I will lying if I deny wanting to do a real 26.2 mile full marathorn.

However, it will be a slow process, because I do not want to be injured again.

Q suddenly ask me if I sign up for the race, and she reminded me that back in JC, I, SK, C and her run together on our own after school, we are so "onz"! There was so many years, i almost forgot I used to like jogging manz...

Last Saturday, the gang of 4 with the little prince meet up for the first time in ECP. The kid is getting stronger day by day, he keep pointing at dogs and chiobus, he even make the cafe waitress laugh nonstop. This mini ji kou pek,he thinks he can get away with murder that super cheeky wide smile and dimples!

He can stand on his own for a dead 6 seconds, and knows terms like"clap hands', "nods" and "shake head".

Q cannot wait to cycle with him, as for me I booked him to join me in the dojo 5 years from now.

0904

I finally sms her to tell her, yet she cannot explain properly why she did that.

All she did was copied what I said, mainly"utterly disappointed", I am "trying to pick up fight" hallo? Who is?

Who cares of whether she tells me where she works, its not the explicit thing.

Give you chance you cannot explain properly, fine lor, I take it as a test of my limited patience, maybe time will proves me wrong.

如果你直接讲不信任我，我可以接受的，不需要萎萎缩缩，虚虚假假。

要嘛，你就爽快一点，判我死刑，要不就是无罪释放，你凭什么判我无期徒刑？

At the dojo, I suudenly start slamming for the first time, it was not as intimidating as I thought.

I don't know why I suddenly pick up the courage to go for it finally, maybe I was absent for too long and my adrelaine cravings snapped back!Or maybe I want to prove that those gym arm workout...works?

I keep telling myself "remember no slamming flat on the back!" (ouch)

The guy senior is very gentle on me so I trust him not to break my arms, even though yesterday's moves were rather in the dangerous department.

Ironically, it is usually the lady seniors who almost injured/hurt me because they simply underestimate their their own power.

0903

We are supposed to go picnic at the usual place I run but end up screwed up. I think I am destined to run alone when training, better lah, not so troublesome, waiting for people is very timewasting.

Ah yi found new job but refused to tell me, I don't agree with her to be so secretive, I mean come on, how big is the industry? It does not mean I don't respect her decison right?

Haven't I told her of my recent plans as well? Yeah right, maybe I should just be secretive as well hor.Is she going to hide from me forever, buay awkward meh?*shrugs*

I don't trust people much so I don't expect people to trust me. Whatever wtf. I wish life is as simple and as satisfying as running.

Looking forward to Aikido classes again, heh, today I went to gym and found only 2 others there, so exclusive! Since it was so quiet, I try the "pulley" machine , using the lightest weights, it is indeed a great workout.

I dream that I was running away from a really big tusnami; another dream was where I was working out in a gym and LC was doing yoga or pilates?!?!